All I can say is, get professional help! And as quickly as possible at that.
Depression's a bitch, and it's hard to leave that behind without any kind of help. Worst case scenario you'll need medicine to get better, but start talking to a professional.
That's the best advice you'll get from anyone around here. Take it.
I'm on Twitter @DanneSandin!
Furthermore, I think VGChartz should add a "Like"-button.